2000- 2009 Ten years & I still find each day too short

10 years! One decade is about to complete in few days of this 21^st century. And I still find each day too short for all the thoughts I want to think, for all the walk I want to take, all the books I want to read, and all the friends I want to meet. 

As the year 2009 comes to close many fellow have began to discuss not only their tops of the decade and New Year of such. You know, few who think it's so important that they need to make a grand stand about it with friends close peers in disk/ malls / pub and what ever option a metro life offer them. Few think what rubbish back in the year 2000 was quick to bash anyone who said the new millennium because they were better than them for knowing that technically 2001 was the new millennium.

 What ever it is I look at this with   “My Ten Years” why my ten years not because it’s a new millennium first decade, not because my life is getting end here. My ten years is closed to me because this is the span of time from where my own actual journey get starts like many others of my age.

A school girl to livening life of my own, meeting odds in,  sometime living in my comfort zone &

some time breaking them. Looking back towards those ten years, the most important thing in my life was to get good marks and make myself presentable in school. Life was only in school coaching classes and being with my friends and of course lots of fun mischievous acts.Yes I was ambitious and had many dreams like other teenagers and agenda of my life to prove myself in front of my “papa” . Two years passed and I joined Aligarh Muslim University, three years there and by the time my big eyes had big dreams to explore metropolitan city Mumbai, 

breaking my first comfort zone, of deciding going alone leaving everything behind, every swaying offers behind.
I had no Idea what made me influence to let my self  be in Mumbai, as only in six month It was complete deprived cultural shock to me. The kind of family I had and the kind of back-ground I had belonged , taking these rough decision was not an easy attempt and had their own mode of payment . That makes you pay the price of everything you owe from life. What ever I have seen there, experience there lethal but true realities of life friend’s relations and  girls having the audacity to deal with any odd situation which suppressed all those odd ideas of mine about looking at women as a week and timid creature. I had now this capacity to look thing beyond the circumstances. Mumbai gave me my first identity, it made me realize Hard work self courage never goes rundown. It put me many times in odd situation but however always helped me to come out of it.
It given me excellent friends given me a new direction and made me see my dreams through, and then I broke  my comfort zone or call it destiny made me to do so, Delhi was calling and on sudden I was in Delhi.

This time more prepared missed hideously my friends, their support they cheers " Naaz you can do,  you are unique believe us " . with this there was the changes and experience lethal realities of life and paying price of many unwanted situations, realizing weakness of mine , on sudden I was again alone I was again out of the gathering. Life made me see altogether new equation which was derived due to I would say “law of reciprocate.” . I Took time to accept few thing and was no more dependable for my happiness sorrow on anyone. I got ample amount of time of my own self,  did new things which was always in back stage, understood everything changes with time better to accept it early, understood there is no one wrong or  right, its only the states of mind how we take it.

Some time I think what If I wouldn’t had come to Delhi, and get my answer also. This was not me who came to Delhi this was a destiny call who has created things and made me leaving my comfort zone since these last ten years. Every time I had an option to quit and every time I know what I am doing and how it may turn. I had got a new and good destination in career in life, more mature in thought more subtle and stable....

 10 years -a school girl to livening life of my own. When I turn back I think I had laps many thing but gain equally. And in all shorts and falls gain and high, I live truly; smile smile & smile & some time laugh for everything. :)

Some time I think where after one more ten years?  No idea may be no where,  may be with two kids and running behind them , may be with an adorable life time friend “ hubby ” may be an unwanted  situation , may be in an idiotic life,  would not comment further. What ever it is  one thing I know when I will turn back and look at my laps and in all shorts and falls gain and high , evaluating from there I will be smiling as today. and I am firm about it. :)

Love you life, love you my Ten years you are precious :)