aaNkhoN kaa rang, baat kaa lahjaa badal gayaavo shaKhs ek shaam meN kitnaa badal gayaa !
kuch din to meraa aks rahaa aaiine pe naqshphir yuN hu’aa ke Khud meraa chehraa badal gayaa
jab apne apne haal pe ham tum na rah saketo kyaa hu’aa jo hamse zamaanaa badal gayaa
qadmoN tale jo ret bichii thii vo chal paRiius ne chuRaayaa haath to sehraa badal gayaa
ko’ii bhii chiiz apnii jagah par nahiiN rahiijaate hi ek shaKhs ke, kyaa kyaa badal gayaa !
ek sar-khushii kii mauj ne kaisaa kiyaa kamaalvo be-niyaaz, saare kaa saaraa badal gayaa
uThTh kar chalaa gayaa ko’ii vaqfe ke darmiyaaNpardaa uThThaa to saaraa tamaashaa badal gayaa
hairat se saare lafz use dekhte rahebaatoN meN apnii baat ko kaisaa badal gayaa
kahne ko ek seh’n meN diivaar hii baniighar kii fizaa, makaaN kaa naqshaa badal gayaa
shaayed vafaa ke khel se uktaa gayaa thaa vomanzil ke paas aa ke jo rastaa badal gayaa
qaayem kisii bhii haal pe duniyaa nahiiN rahiitaa’biir kho gayii, kabhii sapnaa badal gayaa
manzar kaa rang asl meN saayaa thaa rang kaajis ne use jidhar se bhii dekhaa badal gayaa
andar ke mausamoN kii Khabar us kii ho gayiius nau-bahaar-e-naaz kaa chehraa badal gayaa
aaNkhoN meN jitne ashq the jugnuu se ban gayevo muskuraayaa aur merii duniyaa badal gayaa
apnii galii meN apnaa hii ghar dhhuNdhtee haiN log“Amjad” ye kaun shah’r kaa naqshaa badal gayaa
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Saturday, March 21, 2009
When I meet this stranger and experience being stronger.
This story start 6th month before in my ignorance that I am getting noticed by a stranger who also live next to me. I moved to Delhi in 2008 and moved to this rented place- MalwiyaNagar.I could only recall that apart from few weeks I hardly knew anybody around me.
My days start in the morning, getting prepared and rushing to office hoping not getting late again, same mania happens in the evening same time, since I even don’t notice who is there. Yes while coming back from work I used to be time little relaxed, I walked down my street, buy fruits etc. That’s my relation with Malwiya nagar. On weekends generally I work or I go to meet my friends, over n all I had very low profile in this aria. I never expected that anybody could notice me expect the grocery shop man.
I always used to cross one small lane before or after coming to home. There I guess I realized about this guy who must be around in his 30es sitting on the wheelchair, one day I noticed that he always give a smile to me, whenever he saw me, in return after few days I also gave smile. At a time I used to feel mercy on this guy and sometime I may thought what went wrong with him that he is on wheelchair.
Now the counterpart of this story, it happened, I fell down from the staircase and my hands swelled from wrist to shoulder. It started hurting when I move. I was appalled and went to doctor, there he cleared out that it’s not fractured, gave me an injection and put a bandage in my hand for two days. It was painful and irritating, this was really frustrating me that day. Evening when I was crossing the same lane, I was on phone talking to somebody and sounding very miserable, I saw him sitting on same place on his wheelchair. This Man first time called me “Madam” I first didn’t even notice, then little loudly he again asked me hello. I turn back and replied HI.
He rolled his chair said sorry myself is Narender, mai yahi rahata hun, ( I stay closed by) and asked what happen to me why I am looking sad , I exposed him my hand, and told him , I got hurt and this hand is swelled poorly and paining me. He chuckled and replied so what happen look at this legs even if you cut them I won’t even feel any pain, this is in sense . I don’t feel anything down part of body. I was stunned and asked courteously why this happen with you. He said I always see you when u crossed this lane, “Aap Mujhe bahut acchi lagti hai” I always thought to speak to you once but never has courage to speak. You please come to my house I live here only I said no I m getting late he insisted me to come and added don’t worry my uncle too is there he came to meet me. I smiled I went to his house, this was one room attached kitchen flat, one bed two chairs and one small fridge , TV was there the room. He gave me a glass of water and said, "I am from Jammu, loved driving fast on the hill and once I was driving I meet with accident and fall down from the height. He chuckle and said this happen 6 years before. I was in coma for more than a year; I was a rejected and no hope case. I asked then, I replied , “My spinal bone injured roughly, doctor said it has injured badly now only it can’t be recover, but I know it will recover one day I will be able to walk like others. After one year coma I was on bed for another year, I used to only see and fell around me not able to do nay thing of my own. Then slowly I recover and came to this wheelchair, Isn’t an achievement, he smiled I smiled and said yes. He continued Now I seat on this wheelchair own, and I can go alone to the washroom do my essential things on my own. I was almost feeling embarrassed for myself for cribbing a small injury while listening to him.
He was chuckling but I was gazing him thinking how come he seems so content. If this could happen with me, will I be that okay, certainly not.
In the night I spoke to my brother about this, he said few lines which were very realistic and true concealed aspect of life, he said “Narender made compromise with his circumstance. He has no complain except waiting for his life to meet a good end. A pessimistic and optimistic both meet the ends of life. But the choice is what which matter. He chooses to be optimistic and make other cheerful with his presence.
It’s been 6 years he is in on wheelchair he don’t know when he will be able to walk. I pray, the day comes early in his life. No sympathy word for him, as I find him stronger than those who are not handicapped but yet not able to live life in optimistic way. May be I am too among those. We look for support sympathy in our life. He runs without those. Hat’s off to his courage.
My days start in the morning, getting prepared and rushing to office hoping not getting late again, same mania happens in the evening same time, since I even don’t notice who is there. Yes while coming back from work I used to be time little relaxed, I walked down my street, buy fruits etc. That’s my relation with Malwiya nagar. On weekends generally I work or I go to meet my friends, over n all I had very low profile in this aria. I never expected that anybody could notice me expect the grocery shop man.
I always used to cross one small lane before or after coming to home. There I guess I realized about this guy who must be around in his 30es sitting on the wheelchair, one day I noticed that he always give a smile to me, whenever he saw me, in return after few days I also gave smile. At a time I used to feel mercy on this guy and sometime I may thought what went wrong with him that he is on wheelchair.
Now the counterpart of this story, it happened, I fell down from the staircase and my hands swelled from wrist to shoulder. It started hurting when I move. I was appalled and went to doctor, there he cleared out that it’s not fractured, gave me an injection and put a bandage in my hand for two days. It was painful and irritating, this was really frustrating me that day. Evening when I was crossing the same lane, I was on phone talking to somebody and sounding very miserable, I saw him sitting on same place on his wheelchair. This Man first time called me “Madam” I first didn’t even notice, then little loudly he again asked me hello. I turn back and replied HI.
He rolled his chair said sorry myself is Narender, mai yahi rahata hun, ( I stay closed by) and asked what happen to me why I am looking sad , I exposed him my hand, and told him , I got hurt and this hand is swelled poorly and paining me. He chuckled and replied so what happen look at this legs even if you cut them I won’t even feel any pain, this is in sense . I don’t feel anything down part of body. I was stunned and asked courteously why this happen with you. He said I always see you when u crossed this lane, “Aap Mujhe bahut acchi lagti hai” I always thought to speak to you once but never has courage to speak. You please come to my house I live here only I said no I m getting late he insisted me to come and added don’t worry my uncle too is there he came to meet me. I smiled I went to his house, this was one room attached kitchen flat, one bed two chairs and one small fridge , TV was there the room. He gave me a glass of water and said, "I am from Jammu, loved driving fast on the hill and once I was driving I meet with accident and fall down from the height. He chuckle and said this happen 6 years before. I was in coma for more than a year; I was a rejected and no hope case. I asked then, I replied , “My spinal bone injured roughly, doctor said it has injured badly now only it can’t be recover, but I know it will recover one day I will be able to walk like others. After one year coma I was on bed for another year, I used to only see and fell around me not able to do nay thing of my own. Then slowly I recover and came to this wheelchair, Isn’t an achievement, he smiled I smiled and said yes. He continued Now I seat on this wheelchair own, and I can go alone to the washroom do my essential things on my own. I was almost feeling embarrassed for myself for cribbing a small injury while listening to him.
He was chuckling but I was gazing him thinking how come he seems so content. If this could happen with me, will I be that okay, certainly not.
In the night I spoke to my brother about this, he said few lines which were very realistic and true concealed aspect of life, he said “Narender made compromise with his circumstance. He has no complain except waiting for his life to meet a good end. A pessimistic and optimistic both meet the ends of life. But the choice is what which matter. He chooses to be optimistic and make other cheerful with his presence.
It’s been 6 years he is in on wheelchair he don’t know when he will be able to walk. I pray, the day comes early in his life. No sympathy word for him, as I find him stronger than those who are not handicapped but yet not able to live life in optimistic way. May be I am too among those. We look for support sympathy in our life. He runs without those. Hat’s off to his courage.
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